here goes...

i've been trying to blog for the past few days but wasnt able to b'coz of my internet data card is not being cooperative..in fact,its doing it again:-( nway, i've been working at my new place for the past 2 days, n so far so good, i think??!!i mean, i do know for a fact that there's so much to learn.but then again, this is what i wanted so i have to face the music, as scary as it seems..i'm given a mentor to teach me, but as my 2nd boss said,"nobody will help u if u dun help urself so if u dunno, u have to ask"..perrhh...kalau ikutkan, nilar yg malas when u come to a new job, u gotta learn again..i have thought this thing thru before, n if i don't do it now, it's much harder to get off coz i'll probably be complacent in my 'comfort zone'..i shud think it's just the right time...now, all i have to do is to get past these awkward phases of being the new girl n miss sweet,hahaha!!1st stop will be to learn as fast as possible as much as i can n get myself confirm within 6 months..after that, hopefully everything will be A-ok!!!

starting in a few days time...

in a about 3 days more, i'll be working in a new company, probably a different environment but still in the same area..it's a bit daunting but then i've got to face the fear,oohhh...everyone does it all the time,rite..well,if i want changes,i've to step out of my comfort zone.that's the only way to go..but of course,until u actually get there,it is scary..like a friend said, the fear of the unknown..btw,just a few minutes ago,i've got a call from my soon-to-be office that they actually gave me the wrong information..they said i'm supposed to report duty today but they told me earlier to report on 27th sept..well,it's not my fault,rite..in the end,they called again and said stick to the earlier date which is 27th,hehehe...pheww,quite a relieve coz i've got a few things to settle before i start working,like picking up my baju raye,hahaha,pretty exciting!!wonder how my baju will turn out.not that i'll get long raye holidays,since i've just started working, tapi raye la jugak,kan..nways,today is my brother's birthday n i've yet to wish him..Happy 26th Birthday,dear Amil..i'll send him an e-card later..n today i'll be going to my house in D'rimba, Kota D'sara to pick up the keys and do some house inspection..hope it will be ok so that soon i'll be able to rent it out..

family comes first

had a chat with my mum and brother juz now about how important family is..whenever things go wrong or something bad happened, it is comforting to know that we still have our families to back us up.there r many kinds of theories of what makes a family,whether it's big or small.i've got a friend who told me that she had 10 siblings n every year they will organize a family outing..my brother said his friend had a close relationship with not only his siblings but also with his cousins whom every now and then would juz drop by his house without warning and eat dinners like it was their own house (sometimes my brother surprises me with his matured views on certain issues, even better than his older brother!!)..so, my mum said, she would like us to have that kind of bond with each other and no matter how busy we r with our lives, we must always be there for each other and make time for families to be together..like she said,"dgn adik-beradik jgn berkira"..so, i kinda make a point that:-

• i want my children to be able to go to their aunty n uncles's houses feeling comfortable and vice versa
• i want us to schedule "family time" together every now and then
• instill the importance of family comes first with my children
• make a point to at least acknowledge special occasions like birthdays etc and celebrate together whenever possible

another sad story...

by now everyone would have heard the news about the missing child,nurin jazlin..it's sad and pathetic that these things happened to an innocent young child and it happened right here in Malaysia..it seems that people r no longer afraid of doing bad things, probably not afraid of the authorities anymore, or was it just that everyone is so caught up in the rat race that they got pressured by the world and think that the only way to ease these pressures are by picking up on the helpless ones..in this case, a child..nauzubillah....we must now play our part in helping out by not being ignorant n open up our eyes to save other children from these beasts..condolence to the family,Al-Fatihah..

bad haircut

i went to a salon in kluang to try my hands out on treating my hair,haha...then i got carried away by letting the hairdresser cut my hair..now i regret having that haircut and worse i dunno what i can do about it..i think i look like so chinesey,n my fringe is getting on my nerves,uurrggghhh!!there goes my rambut raye...cheessshhh!!!

what's ur firstborn gonna be??

the other day i visited a friend who had just delivered an adorable bb boy last 12th september 07..she's my former schoolmate who has also been 1 of my dormmates for 3 consecutive years..nways,i met up with other schoolfrens too n we had friendly chats..n one of the debate was what would u like ur firstborn to be??do u prefer having a boy or a girl as ur 1st child??of course,having a girl as the 1st child,i would be bias if i say i prefer a girl..but then i'm the 1st in the family too,n i'm a girl..duhh,so of course i've the rights to say that!!ok,on another note,i think that by having girls as the firstborn,they often tend to be more responsible and caring towards their parents, brothers n sisters, reminding and planning for the family's birthdays and anniversaries, be it gifts or celebration, asking the fathers to eat their medicine n go to medical checkups bla,bla,bla..u get the idea..with guys, since they have this thing called egos,they dont usually do these things...girls touched people emotionally,guys do it with action..even more worse if the boy got married to a "queen control",(owh no,hope not la)
just this morning, i had the chance to watch Malaysia Hari Ini on TV3..they were discussing s'thing abt todays children upbringing.the Prof says that nowadays parents tend to be afraid of their children.they refuse to marah2 them in fear that they will run away...sian jugak..being parents today is not the same anymore compared to last time..now u have to update urselves with the latest so as to know what ur children r up to..nways, the Prof did share 5 kinds of LURVE LANGUAGE:-

• touch language-eg.hugging,kissing
• verbal language-eg. saying "i love u","u're a good girl","pandai anak mama nih"
• rewards/presents language-giving presents/rewards when they did s'thing right
• like a 'khidmat' language-whereby u support ur children by attending his Sports Day..
• alamak,luper la the last language!!!heheheh...

so,all i haf to do is watchout 4 my daughter's behavior and see which suits her best..by the way,which 1 r u??

my 2nd attemp at blogging,huh!!

so,ok...now what??actually,i've got something that i'm pissed about...have u ever been in a situation whereby u know everybody but they kinda ignore u??n suddenly u feel like an outsider??dont u think that when u are in a group, conversing with each other, the least u can do is try to include everyone,tho they may not be able to join u but...anyway,that's a different story..i've got another thing that i'm wondering about??!!i'm kinda hurt that a friend of mine has not made an attempt to contact me,despite a couple of messages i sent her telling that i missed her...cam tak best..but nevermind,i know she must be bz with her new life...but i realized now that in life, as much as u want to keep everything to stay the same always, u will have to face the fact that changes are here to stay,like for example graduating and looking for a job,single to married and having children..its inevitable..so what u need to do is to accept and adapt to these changes as positive as possible and ur life will be smoothsailing,tho there r times when u've got that mood swing and suddenly everything seems to be haywired...tu biasela kan..sometimes,juz to keep urself sane in this crazy life, remember that somewhere out there,there's someone who loves u for who u r..maybe ur parents,ur family & friends,ur children..keep reminding myself of that!!like my hubby said,we too have our own circle of friends n families,hihihi..i know i can count on him to keep me firmly on the ground..that's my irfan..